The days are numbered.
Overhead, the intense blue of a Minnesota sky pours down
upon us, an early-fall blessing.
Be happy,
Minneapolitans.
The bus is full:
there are two to a seat, there are folks in the aisle. I had been lucky to get one of the last of
the seats, next to a sharply dressed woman with a book in her lap.
There is little room for us, and yet the mood is
upbeat.
Can a whole bus be happy?
A woman with spiral hair steps aside to allow a woman with
a brightly colored ponytail a little more room, and they smile at each
other. A very large man in a suit and a man
in kitchen garb work their way toward the back exit, get off at the next
available stop, and they all laugh as they squeeze by each other: excuse
me, pardon me, so sorry.
I look up to see a man in the aisle five, maybe six people
away, staring at me.
He looks so familiar, and yet he seems too thin.
David! A fellow bus rider. I haven’t
seen him for years, I think.
I give him a big smile, and he raises a hand, smiles
back.
David is brilliant.
Our talks were of horticulture, of birds and the politics of a simple
life.
At the next stop, the aisle clears enough for David to
make his way toward my seat. Pardon me, he says. Excuse
me.
“David!” I exclaim.
“Where the hell have you been?”
And then I see it: a slowness.
Oh, David.
“Pearl,” he says, smiling. “I’ve been gone. A year and a half.”
“Where?” I say. “Where
did you go?”
He shrugs, leans in so close that our noses almost touch. I resist the urge to kiss him. “I
ask myself,” he says.
I wait.
He lays a cautious finger on his temple. “Part of my brain is loose. Guess it has been since I was born.”
Eyes locked, we laugh, just a little, and I feel
something in the center of my chest twist.
“What do you mean,” I say. “How is your brain loose?”
He shrugs again. “It
was a very hot day, I remember that. And
now –“ He trails off, looks out the bus
window. “They’re holding my job. I’m very lucky that way.”
The bus slows, and he turns back to me, looks deep into
my eyes. “Here’s my stop,” he says. “I’m so glad I saw you again.”
“Me, too,” I say.
The back door opens, and David steps off the bus.
And overhead, the sky reaches upward, endlessly.
32 comments:
Oh, Pearl. This post made my heart leap. We're supposed to mind our tongues here, I know, but there's no other words for it: This was effing amazing writing.
Thank you, Dawn. This was Tuesday afternoon, and there was something most memorable about the bus, even before I saw David. Seeing him again put a poignant twist to the afternoon: the happiness/contentment around me, the changing seasons... It still almost hurts to think about, you know?
The calendar pages turn, the clouds blow by, the sun rises and sets....we are all together on the bus and yet so far apart.... I hope Davids life improves and that you see him again.
Hari OM
Oh my...poignant doesn't even begin to describe this Pearl. That it is also the third blog in a row that I have read today with similar depth and feeling causes me to ponder the effects of electromagnetics, planetary movements and the Common Mind. We are all linked in one way or another - your link with David is clearly worth the noting and perhaps by this recognition our thoughts will draw together to pool in his 'help' bank.
You are a locus of goodness, dear lady...and you know how to spread it. YAM xx
Wow. You've left me speechless.
Delores, well put. We are all on the bus -- and yet so far apart. How true that is.
Yamini, why, thank you! The Common Mind is something that will figure into my readings this coming year, so I love hearing this!
Mandy, I hope that's a good thing. :-)
Amen to the above comments.
Leenie, thank you.
David's explanation will haunt me for a long time. How does a part of a brain become loose? What part? What did he mean? We are so fragile...
There are Davids in our lives. We embrace them with our eyes and minds and hearts and they know and appreciate it.
His description of a part of his brain being loose could be so many things - a stroke, an aneurysm, a mental shift, a tumor - but the important thing is that a good person did not leave this earth before his time ...
I too am speechless (in a good way too). It's incredible how the people who float in and out of our lives can have such a profound impact.
Oh my. What a heart-wrenching tale, Pearl. It's amazing how quickly a person's life can change. Things happen in an instant.
Oh! Your posts are so HUMAN (when they're not about cats).
One of my favorite poets, Jules Laforgue, could transport the reader to his time, his keen observations amid the moving frame of his city, the elevation of objects into symbols. I feel the same amazement at your work, and appreciation.
Another beautiful setup for a poignant tale of real life as she is lived. Which of us knows on which hot day...
It IS a good thing! I tweeted and Facebooked the shizznit out of you today.
Oh Pearl. This is beautiful. And reminds me that while I am in awe of your observations and your writing it is your heart which keeps me coming back.
Not only did my heart twist for this unknown-to-me David, but tears started leaking. There is only a thin line between a brain that is firmly entrenched and a brain that has become loose.
I love those sort of "friends"....I call them "everyday friends." One of mine was the pharmacist at the local Target. He'd always ask me when the baby was due---because I was on prenatal vitamins to help with my anemia. He knew it was safe to tease me that way....and I looked for him to do so.
I went one day to look for him and I heard the pharmacists talking. He had a minor surgery and threw a blod clot and died.
I still miss him.
I hope you see David again.
Little to add to the above comments Pearl. Thank you for a deeply moving post.
Oh Pearl, what are you doing to me?
The bus, a mini-world. :¬)
xxx
Wow! That was really good Pearl.
People are in and out of our lives and sometimes, we don't even know it.
"...and overhead, the sky reaches upward, endlessly."
The cold, unfeeling sky seems immense in our days of grief.
Pearl, you struck a cord with this one, for sure.
You made me cry. My husbands "brain was loose" for the last several years of his life (frontal lobe dementia-he died last Nov).
Bloody hell this was a good post
Just one thing can change the mood of the moment. Sad.
so sad Pearl, reminds me of a friend who had a mental breakdown. He looks the same, but his eyes are different now, and he no longer has the quick jokes we both used to laugh at. I hope your Dave improves and gets his job back.
The winds of change blow on all of us. It is amazing when another soul can touch us deep inside merely with their presence. Wishing the best for David...and you too. What a gift a smile is.
Pearl, you never cease to amaze me. I admire your writing so much. This is absolutely wonderful. Poignant. Telling.Touching. Beautiful. There are not enough words to describe. Kudos to you.
I am looking out into an impossibly blue sky here on this crisp fall day in Canada and thinking of the 'David' in my life. She just told me that she has been take off chemo for good. And now we wait.
Whoa. Life is...unpredictable. The body, the brain betray you.
Post a Comment